A Lazy Sunday Afternoon

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I’m being lazy today.  I was lazy yesterday, too. Friday wasn’t very hectic, either. All in all, a decent weekend.

Earthquake Damage Report, Shuttle

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Mom, the 1970’s, the closet, and burdens unseen

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Today is my Mother’s 72nd birthday.  (This photo is from about ten years ago)  After a nice visit, where my niece, and then my nephew and his family stopped by, I was saying goodbye, when Mom said something that kind of stunned me.

“I’m just sorry I wasn’t a better mother for you.  Maybe then you wouldn’t have been so…   unhappy.”

I don’t recall her ever having mentioned anything to give me a hint that she might have felt inadequate as a parent, and that I might have suffered as a result.

As I was leaving, I told her, of course, that she was the best, and there was no doubt of that.  Especially, I said, if she were to compare herself to some of the mothers of people I knew growing up.  Some of them were real witches!  I told her that if anyone ever thought of her as a witch, it could only have been as Glinda.  (Interestingly, The Wizard of Oz came out in the same year Mom was born. Coincidence? I think not.)

As I was driving home, it occurred to me that she might have been carrying this burden of thinking herself inadequate for some time.  As that thought process worked it’s way through my head,  it collided with several baggage cars of my own personal freight train.  In no particular order:  I had never noticed that she might be feeling like a failure as a mother, that I come across as “unhappy” or at least seemed that way to her, now or in the past, and that she might be feeling responsible for my difficulties coming to terms with my homosexuality.

I think we’re going to have to have a talk.

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Happy Birthday, Mom

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Circa 1972, 33 years old.

Happy Birthday, Mom.

9-1-1, what is your emergency? (enter)

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The FCC is working on plans to allow texting, picture, and video communications with 9-1-1 centers.  It will require a revamping of the system from circuit-switched to IP based technology.  That, of course, isn’t going to be cheap.  We’ll see if Congress supplies the funding for such a rebuilding of the system.

This should be fun.  If it ever happens here, I’ll keep you updated.

Earthbound forever more

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August 11, 2011

Outside the Vertical Assembly Building

Earthbound forever more.

Mars Geek: Opportunity’s Picture of the Moment

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Mars is more than a red dot in the night sky.  It’s a real place.  We can go there.

Your signal is fuzzy….

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Maybe up the power or something, you’re not holding the repeater!

How Can It Have Been 5 Years?

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Thursday was 5 years since my father died.  It struck me as I was driving that the anniversary passed two days ago, without my realizing it.  It sure doesn’t seem like it’s been 5 years already.

On Father’s Day I wrote about the time he tried to teach me to swim, which went badly.  Today, I think I’ll mention something that went reasonably well, and had as much a long term effect as the swimming pool incident, but with positive results.

For my 12th birthday, my parents bought me a set of books.  They included Tom Sawyer, The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, Black Beauty, Tales from the Arabian Nights, and a couple of others.  I still have several of them, sitting on a bookshelf in my bedroom.  A couple have managed to disappear in the intervening years, but five have managed to survive.  I don’t recall if those books sparked my haunting of the school and public libraries for the next decade, or if the gift of the books were a result of my enjoyment of reading.  Either way, they began a life long love of reading.  Now it’s possible to read books on a pad, or on the computer.  I’m not sure I like reading that way, though.  I read a couple of short novella length books on my iPhone, and it’s not really a good way to enjoy a book.  The iPad might be different, as it’s a bigger screen, and the Kindle and similar devices might be good, too.  Guess I’ll have to try one out, someday.

Of course, that creates a situation a bit like the scene in Men in Black, where K says “looks like I’ll have to buy the White Album again”.  It’s a bit odd paying for a book you already own, just to have it handy on an electronic device.  Perhaps it’s worth it.

At any rate, back to the 12 year old and his birthday present.  Dad brought the box in, and even though he might not have been the one to have selected the present, or suggested the titles, he did carry it in and give it to me.  That’s one of the good memories that have held on about him.

Five years.  That’s still a bit odd to consider.  Time marches on.

Those Sexy Nerds

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Not safe for most work places, nor for those who are prone to the vapors.  For the rest of us, this is pretty good stuff!

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